How are you holding up these days? I’m somehow managing, but it is a daily struggle. Warning! This will be a rant and whine post.
Blast this virus to the fiery depths of hell! I’m still virus-free, thankfully, but everything about this pandemic is relentless. I’ve greatly limited my news intake, so that’s helping.
Roommate #1, the one who fled to her parents’ house upon the start of lockdown, has completely moved out as of last month. Now that there is an empty room in the house, the rest of us roommates are paying higher rent and utilities to cover the cost. My monthly payment has gone up over $250. And good luck to us getting a new roommate in the middle of this pandemic with more rentals on the market now that people are leaving town.
Still stressful. I don’t even want to spend time thinking about it to write about here. I’m burned out. Mr. Backstabby seems to have switched his focus to something else for the time being. I’m not a nurse, but the image above is so accurate for me.
I finally got my tax refund. It took almost two months to get it this year, when it usually takes just a couple of weeks. I was beginning to worry that I might not get it at all.
I have $22,000 in my Emergency Fund, up about $5k from my last post.
Omg, my life is a meme. My health is not very good these days. My cholesterol is through the roof now, even higher than it was before. I am in heart attack territory.
The condition that put me in the hospital about 5 years ago, appears to be returning. This is bad because I can’t go through that again. I just can’t. 😥
Plus I’ve developed some troubling musculoskeletal pain with my neck, jaw, and back. I’ve ventured out to two doctors to try to find out the problem and how to cure it.
And there are myriad other health things that I won’t even get into here. My high-stress job and COVID confinement are the gasoline being poured on top of everything.
The best thing to do for my health right now would be to quit working altogether, but there is no way I can do that at a time like this. I need the money and health insurance…at least for a little longer. I’m not on death’s door or anything, but I have a window of opportunity to make big positive changes in my life and this virus is in the way.
This is not a very independent Independence Day for me. When I paid off my debt last year, I expected that by now, halfway through 2020, I’d be financially able to start calling the shots in my life and start making moves. This has not been the case.
I am starting to make plans for myself, at least for the short/medium term, but they are just that, plans. When I can enact them is entirely dependent on a mindless and destructive virus that I have no control over. All anyone can do is wait it out and try to stay healthy. So in the meantime, I’m still feeling trapped.
The Next Step?
want need to travel and have extended time off work to get my physical and mental health back. A few weeks of vacation isn’t going to cut it. I’m planning to take at least 6 months off as soon as is feasible. For now, however, my plan is to bide my time until 1) I have gotten a vaccine shot, AND 2) travel opens up again. At that time, I will quit my job without hesitation and take a career break. I realize this will be over 1 year away, and even still, is likely optimistic.
If I get laid off or fired before then, so be it. I can live on unemployment. Sigh.
How is your Independence Day going?
“When you don’t have options, you’re in prison.” (DDSW Archives)