[-$13,863] Uncertainty

This job is so draining that I don’t often have the energy to post anymore. However, things could be worse, right?

What will I do?  I’m trying to figure that out before life figures it out for me. I have both short and long term considerations at play, which makes decision-making more complicated.

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[-$15,000] Warming Up

Yes, my balance dropped. No, it wasn’t because of the minimum monthly payment. I’ve been standing on the sidelines of this race for long enough, I think. It’s time to get back on the track. This week’s payment is a warmup.

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[-$15,390] Another Week, Another Dollar

I know I’ve been missing-in-action for a while now. Thanks, C, for checking in on me. This job has me so exhausted and takes up so much of my life, that don’t have much time for myself and the very few hobbies that I used to have anymore. And not surprisingly, so little has changed that this post will be very, very similar to my last one. Ugh!

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[-$16,000] Looking for the Escape Hatch

Sometimes I feel like I’ll be fine at this job with enough time to learn, but other times, I just feel in over my head and exhausted. I am feeling stressed because I’m working on my first two projects and my crew is waiting on me to finish my part before we can all move to the next phase.

So I’m holding up multiple other people and they are getting frustrated. They want me to work faster, but I have to work with other (non-crew) people and timelines outside my control. And I’m working with tools I’ve never used before and creating new processes where none currently exist. The crew doesn’t care.    Read More

[-$17,000] Out of the Frying Pan and into the Fire

New Job

I’ve survived two weeks at the new job. The first week was super stressful. Everything is new – process, tools, people. The second day on the job, I had a meeting with a small group of directors, who lead various units, who piled on everything they wanted me to do. I wanted to bolt from that place all day, every day. I felt completely out of my depth.    Read More