I’m feeling like I’m being dragged across the finish line of 2017. I just feel tired.
(I have fallen off on taking all of my supplements regularly, so I’ll need to get back on track with that. That is probably playing a role in things.)
Among other things, I have a close family member in the hospital now. After tests, it was determined that the condition is potentially life threatening, but treatable with surgical intervention, so things will likely be ok, eventually. But getting that first phone call was crazy stressful.
Going home for Thanksgiving was good, but exhausting. Although I know my family loves me, they have a way of making plain every area of lacking in my life. I got some comments on my weight gain, and some strange looks when I got put on the spot and had to announce to a room full of people that I lived with roommates and didn’t have my own place at my age.
But the most cutting words had to to do with my singleness and why I, “not having anybody”, must be miserable out here where I live “all alone” with no one to “take care of me”. See, where I’m from… unmarried woman, over 40, no children = failure. I was only brought to the verge of tears (did not cry) twice, so maybe I’m toughening up a bit. It did remind me why I don’t go home more often.
Omg. I’m am so the person on the right. 100%. I still have to buy Christmas gifts, because I always put it off until the last minute. I put it off because I honestly don’t enjoy it. I’m not a shopper. It’s one more thing I have to get done. Fortunately, I saved some money in my Opportunity Fund to be able to do this.
At the end of the year, I either look back and feel that I got a lot accomplished, or I feel like life has passed me by. Financially, it’s definitely the former, but for everything else its the latter. Still single. At work, I’ve watched colleagues move on to amazing opportunity after amazing opportunity and feel left behind sometimes.
Even after having spent the entirety of this post whining about my life circumstances, I’m optimistic about next year. I recognize that December is generally a tough month for me.
My next post will be my annual year in review post. Stay tuned.