[-$16,000] Looking for the Escape Hatch

Sometimes I feel like I’ll be fine at this job with enough time to learn, but other times, I just feel in over my head and exhausted. I am feeling stressed because I’m working on my first two projects and my crew is waiting on me to finish my part before we can all move to the next phase.

So I’m holding up multiple other people and they are getting frustrated. They want me to work faster, but I have to work with other (non-crew) people and timelines outside my control. And I’m working with tools I’ve never used before and creating new processes where none currently exist. The crew doesn’t care.    Read More

[-$24,200] Of Age and Fuses

Of Age and Fuses

Look at this picture. Do you see a young woman or an old woman?

At work this week, I was talking on a conference call with teammates and the banter led to a conversation about people’s ages. They each said the year they were born. (I didn’t volunteer mine.) I found out that the people that I’ve been working with on this project are ALL younger than me! Even the two leads who are 2 levels above me who I thought were years older. My jaw silently hit my desk.    Read More

[-$35,638] Easing into the End of the Year and Happy Singles Day

Easing into the End of the Year

In my Packing for Guilt Trips post, I wrote about my dread of dealing with family turmoil this year because I wouldn’t be going home for the holidays. So eventually the conversation came up. I let them know I wasn’t flying back and…

…they were ok with it. Holy Hell. I was not expecting that reaction based on our earlier conversations. I was braced for push back, as I have dealt with it from them for many years past. It seems I gave them too little credit this time. I guess they realized that I have already been traveling a lot this year to spend time with them. If they had problems with my not going back for the holidays, they haven’t voiced any to me, at least not yet anyway.

So far, so good, but we’ll see.    Read More