As of about two hours ago, what I feared and expected, came to pass. I was called into a Friday, 4pm meeting with my manager. She informed me what the situation was, and that she had to lay me off.
I was expecting it as you all know, but I thought I’d be able to work out a transition plan where I could at least work until I found something else. No. Everything was effective immediately. That caught me off guard. I got teary eyed at the suddenness of it all.
I’m not broken up about losing this job very much. I have been submitting job applications to other places for the last few weeks. I’m stressed out about how I’m going to pay my bills. If I didn’t have any debt, I could make do because my living expenses are now so low. But, I do have debt, a lot of it. How am I going to make those minimum payments if I don’t get another job right away? I. hate. debt.
I hate that debt is causing me so much stress. I hate the way I’ve felt all week, waiting for the axe to fall. I watched my manager avoid me all week. I sat at my desk with nothing to do while co-workers had three projects each. The last hour before the meeting was nerve-wracking. I hate being at someone’s mercy like that. I will never ever go into debt again. No amount of stuff is worth this. My number one priority is to get another 9-5, live as cheaply as possible and pay this debt off as fast as I can.
I have to tell my landlord and re-assure her that I will be able to pay rent. I will be eligible for unemployment benefits.
I have to tell my family (my siblings and parents) and deal with that. That’s going to be the source of another post. I’m sure of it.
Sigh. My landlord/roommate #1, a 59 year old woman, just came back to the house with her boyfriend. That makes me feel so alone, because I have no one to console me right now. I don’t think it has completely hit me yet. I’m unemployed. I am unemployed. I have no place to go on Monday. And the clock is ticking.
Soon, I will formulate a plan of action (filing for unemployment benefits, ramping up job applications, etc.). For right now, tonight, I just need to cope and deal with this emotionally.
Double Debt Single Woman 
So sorry that this has happened to you 😦 When one door closes, another one opens!! Dont be too hard on yourself, this is something that you did not cause! Your previous manager/co-workers will soon realize how much you will be missed. Please think of this as an opportunity/stepping stone to rise up the ladder for the next place that you are supposed to be. Stay strong and positive!! Good things are heading your way!
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Thanks, Teresa. You were right. Things ended up working out for the better. I couldn’t stay there.
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I’ve been following your blog some time now and wanted to reach out. I have been in your situation almost exactly but have found a way out. Have tou considered using your degree to teach English overseas? Its what I am doing amd many broke college grads. It’s amazing how much they pay is and the experience is wonderful as well. If you have a y questions or just want advice please email me. I live and work in Korea and love that I have enough money to pay back loans, to save, spend, and then some. This is the only opportunity I have found there to be right now as the U.S. struggles to get back on its feet. I hope your ok and please know your NOT alone!!!
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P.s sorry for the misspelling… typing from my phone
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Thanks for the support. That’s an idea. I will look into teaching English abroad. I will see how my current applications go first. I will keep this option in mind.
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I can clearly recall that October day in 2009 when I was laid off. It was a total surprise. I cried because I was so unprepared…like you I had way too much debt and too little savings.
But I have to say that those three months of being out of work were a blessing. Getting laid off taught me that I was more than my job title.
Enjoy your free time between looking for a new job.
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Thank you for the kind words. I have since found a job, however you never really get over losing a job so suddenly.
Yes, we are more than just our jobs.
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