[-$93,051] Why Startups are Not for Me and Why They May Not be for You Either

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There are now a few startups in the neighborhood where I work. I see the young employees, bright and trendy, swishing by while glued to their phones and social media profiles, and feel like I’ve missed the boat. I wish I could have had experiences like that when I was in my 20’s. I feel a little jealous, and yes, old. I’ve seen all the big IPO news stories over the years and wish I could have had that excitement too.

Over the past year, tired of feeling left out, I’ve sent out several resumes to advertised positions at startups, with very few positive responses. Most of the time I got silence.  A while back, I got an actual email rejection, which was a nice change. I didn’t understand why I wasn’t even getting a phone screen when I met all the qualifications.

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April 2013 Update: Back from the Dead Edition

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I’m back for a brief update. My credit card balance is still at $24,998. Right now, I need to build up my emergency fund. Why? Well, the last few weeks have been brutal on the job front.

Right when my second job started, I became entangled in an unusually large project at my 9 to 5 job that required more and more time. For the past two weeks I have been working all day, all night, weekdays, and weekends. No sleep. No breaks. Between the two jobs, I was exhausted, stressed out, and at my breaking point.

My relationship with my manager at my 9 to 5 job has been rapidly deteriorating over the past several months, and this past week has been one of the worst. I’m certain that she’s already laying the ground work to fire me. Poor work review in writing (where I’d had none previously), check. Replacement hired, check. Oh yes, she’s hired someone new to “join” the team, but it’s obvious to me that this person will be replacing me.

I’ve realized that I’m better suited to working “in-house” at a company than working for clients.

I’m literally waiting for the axe any week now.  I have a standing monthly meeting with her next week, and it will not be pretty. If I walk out of there with my job I will be surprised. In the meantime, I’m submitting applications to various places and have already had one phone screen.

Buckle-up. It’s gonna be a bumpy ride.

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“Debtor’s prison is real, and opportunity cost is a bitch.” (DDSW)

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photo credit: Cristiana Gasparotto @ flickr, “Exhaustion”, Creative Commons 2.0