Working and Waiting… and Worrying – Dealing with Job Insecurity

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As I’ve discussed here (1) and here (2), my employment situation has become precarious over recent weeks. This past week there were off-site closed door meetings for higher ups from my division to discuss ‘efficiency’. We (those of us in my division) suspect there will soon be a major re-organization WITHIN our division.

Those of us within our division who work in my satellite office are especially nervous, as signs continue to point to our office space going away. What will happen to our little group in this suspected re-org? We guesstimate that we should be hearing something official at the end of the month. This will likely give HR time to get paperwork together. It also coincides with a planned visit from our new director.  From what I’ve heard, executives here often Read More

…And in Rolls the Thunder: More Job Worries

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Things are still tense and uncertain at work. Those of us at my small satellite office feel that something is going to happen, but we don’t know what.  This week, a couple of my co-workers saw a small group of people walking around and taking measurements and pictures of our rented office space! My co-workers asked them who they were and were told that they were from Facilities Management [which represents the corporation that owns the building] and nothing more. Really!?!

It’s horrible working with a sword over our heads. We’ve had a handful of people jump ship voluntarily in the last week or so. I’m so worried that I Read More

It’s official. I have been fired.

As of about two hours ago, what I feared and expected, came to pass.  I was called into a Friday, 4pm meeting with my manager. She informed me what the situation was, and that she had to lay me off.

I was expecting it as you all know, but I thought I’d be able to work out a transition plan where I could at least work until I found something else. No. Everything was effective immediately. That caught me off guard. I got teary eyed at the suddenness of it all.

I’m not broken up about losing this job very much. I have been submitting job applications to other places for the last few weeks. I’m stressed out about how I’m going to pay my bills. If I didn’t have any debt, I could make do because my living expenses are now so low. But, I do have debt, a lot of it. How am I going to make those minimum payments if I don’t get another job right away? I. hate. debt.

I hate that debt is causing me so much stress. I hate the way I’ve felt all week, waiting for the axe to fall. I watched my manager avoid me all week. I sat at my desk with nothing to do while co-workers had three projects each. The last hour before the meeting was nerve-wracking.  I hate being at someone’s mercy like that. I will never ever go into debt again. No amount of stuff is worth this. My number one priority is to get another 9-5, live as cheaply as possible  and pay this debt off as fast as I can.

I have to tell my landlord and re-assure her that I will be able to pay rent. I will be eligible for unemployment benefits.

I have to tell my family (my siblings and parents) and deal with that. That’s going to be the source of another post. I’m sure of it.

Sigh. My landlord/roommate #1, a 59 year old woman, just came back to the house with her boyfriend. That makes me feel so alone, because I have no one to console me right now. I don’t think it has completely hit me yet. I’m unemployed. I am unemployed. I have no place to go on Monday. And the clock is ticking.

Soon, I will formulate a plan of action (filing for unemployment benefits, ramping up job applications, etc.). For right now, tonight, I just need to cope and deal with this emotionally.